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[beanarie]

i wish i were better at researching so i could feel more comfortable writing pov's (i.e. MADI'S) that don't grab me instantaneously. literally the second thing i did after finishing black sails was start writing what happens to her after and it just collapsed. all of my efforts to bring her into things in a substantial way collapse because i just can't get into her head the way i can silver. silver is a smartass narcissist flying by the seat of his pants with terrible judgement whose shakespearian tragedy hinges on his fatal flaw of trust issues. the man is a laundry list of human frailties, ergo is an eternal mood.

madi was raised to be responsible for an entire people and she never forgot how much she owes to those who are suffering under slavery. she's not perfect, but she is righteous and unselfish and her cause won't be resolved in her lifetime, so she has no plausible reason to ever stop fighting with everything she has. that kind of drive just utterly escapes me. and i don't have the attention span to immerse myself in black revolutionary history for canon settings or immigrant activism for modern AUs. idk man. sucks.

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[language_escapes]

It always blows when a character appeals to you, but also remain outside your comfort zone. There are so many characters out there that I LOVE, but can never write, even though I have a story for them. It is truly a sucky, sucky situation to find ones' self in. I'm sorry that you're in that space.

[quipxotic]

Yes, this!